I’m Marissa, I’m 16 years old, and I’m quite fucked up. This is basically my online diary, I share my inner thoughts here. I self harm, and I constantly plan out my suicide. Enjoy viewing the chaos that is me. Tumblr (3.0; @sadlyitwasjustadream)http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/<p>Didn&#8217;t kill myself and somehow got a boyfriend, cool</p>http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/50479007736http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/50479007736Wed, 15 May 2013 01:21:45 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/337aba66c833430a122dc800432bfdb0/tumblr_mmpskg8a2e1qgo877o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>I apologize for it being in colour! But this is how much weight I’ve lost ahaha so much actually.. But not enough</p>http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/50310540113http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/50310540113Sun, 12 May 2013 22:07:28 -0400although recovering from cutting my ed is still badyeeskinnyjkquite fat stilledme<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/81bc985d6e7ec8766bddcc178225c4da/tumblr_mmlksnVy5O1ruj4cuo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/50224385362http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/50224385362Sun, 12 May 2013 00:13:49 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/69c9a519fa05eef4e820f842cfdad0d9/tumblr_micquxtxoc1rcvvn3o1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/50224355894http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/50224355894Sun, 12 May 2013 00:13:24 -0400<p>So I kinda fucked the guy who was being an asshole to me..<br/> He saw all my scars, didn&#8217;t ask why, instead he told me not to do it again, and then proceeded to kiss my wrist.<br/> It was honestly just awesome..</p>http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/50224254247http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/50224254247Sun, 12 May 2013 00:11:57 -0400scarscutsrecoverycuteself harmself hatedepressiongetting better i guesscuttinged<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/50578af40525f7e75b23dac983bdac74/tumblr_mkeipavGYQ1reng15o1_400.gif"/><br/><br/>http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/50224077544http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/50224077544Sun, 12 May 2013 00:09:28 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m8ekqqxa1T1rzglyho1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a href="http://whisper-of-silence.tumblr.com/post/49419008100" class="tumblr_blog" target="_blank">whisper-of-silence</a>:</p> <blockquote><p>☪</p></blockquote>http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/49899283724http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/49899283724Tue, 07 May 2013 21:28:38 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/fa0cff59a6913da5313050fe52ca0262/tumblr_mm8spyaqsR1rp46dao1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/49899270488http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/49899270488Tue, 07 May 2013 21:28:29 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_matjf1liKw1rusbllo1_500.gif"/><br/><br/>http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/49899168719http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/49899168719Tue, 07 May 2013 21:27:18 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/511b0fc7a05422d45f4720e5ffab77aa/tumblr_mkrj5aakNS1s8y91vo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/49898242861http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/49898242861Tue, 07 May 2013 21:16:19 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m63w03xChv1r0fx0po1_500.gif"/><br/><br/>http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/49898236055http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/49898236055Tue, 07 May 2013 21:16:14 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/4686103965177c730d4bef2a48be5f92/tumblr_mlrn7j4dkM1s82yzro1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://all-time-horizons.tumblr.com/post/48777913577/sinking-apologies-this-lyric-gives-me-the" target="_blank">all-time-horizons</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://sinking--apologies.tumblr.com/post/48777849219/this-lyric-gives-me-the-chills-but-i-am-so-proud" target="_blank">sinking—apologies</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>this lyric gives me the chills.</p> <p>but i am so proud of this.</p> </blockquote> </blockquote>http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/49898205538http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/49898205538Tue, 07 May 2013 21:15:52 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/b68aeef306dab7c989692f80c174c806/tumblr_mg7syt4IUA1rkixbgo1_500.gif"/><br/><br/>http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/49898134615http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/49898134615Tue, 07 May 2013 21:15:02 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_ma9qu4UN771rb630lo1_400.png"/><br/><br/>http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/49898082111http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/49898082111Tue, 07 May 2013 21:14:24 -0400<p>Well I finally have Internet. Lets see; <br/> Next week, Tuesday the 14th, was suppose to be the day I kill myself but that&#8217;s not happening now:/.<br/> I&#8217;ve been getting kinda better! <br/> I&#8217;ve started seeing a boy yay me! <br/> Still really wanna die though.<br/> Aha yeah woo.</p>http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/49898072966http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/49898072966Tue, 07 May 2013 21:14:18 -0400not gonna die anytime soonfuckgetting better nowrecovery<p>You can&#8217;t just make so be like you this much and then fuck off like this.. I bet it&#8217;s because of my fat.. He dates really skinny girls and I&#8217;m not one of those.. Fuck :(</p>http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/48261349566http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/48261349566Thu, 18 Apr 2013 01:36:30 -0400<p>He promised things would be different for me this time.. Nope..</p>http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/48261053520http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/48261053520Thu, 18 Apr 2013 01:30:11 -0400broken promises suck<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/c0181be242e59ed1645cc85ed7cdd699/tumblr_mlf3fhycXa1rubztpo1_500.gif"/><br/><br/>http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/48228621351http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/48228621351Wed, 17 Apr 2013 18:17:43 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/84e3259f093732bf5e5837e6ab075a92/tumblr_mkisqrkMNT1rijbg1o1_500.gif"/><br/><br/>http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/48228603076http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/48228603076Wed, 17 Apr 2013 18:17:29 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m4802fAnlm1r4vftbo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/48228506291http://sadlyitwasjustadream.tumblr.com/post/48228506291Wed, 17 Apr 2013 18:16:16 -0400