I don't know who I am anymore

I'm Marissa, I'm 16 years old, and I'm quite fucked up. This is basically my online diary, I share my inner thoughts here. I self harm, and I constantly plan out my suicide. Enjoy viewing the chaos that is me.

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I apologize for it being in colour! But this is how much weight I’ve lost ahaha so much actually.. But not enough

I apologize for it being in colour! But this is how much weight I’ve lost ahaha so much actually.. But not enough

#although recovering from cutting my ed is still bad  #yee  #skinny  #jk  #quite fat still  #ed  #me  
1 week ago on May 12, 2013 at 10:07pm
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broken-n-bruised: bloodisbest: for more depressing sadness follow meee :)  http://bloodisbest.tumblr.com/ for the best black and white posts, that relate to you, follow broken-n-bruised

broken-n-bruised:

bloodisbest:

for more depressing sadness follow meee :) 

http://bloodisbest.tumblr.com/

for the best black and white posts, that relate to you, follow broken-n-bruised

(via slit-my-wrist-and-hope-to-die)

#this  #triggered  #me  #so  #bad  #want this now  
1 month ago on April 14, 2013 at 03:16am with 2,091 notes
Via fakesmilealways
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So good at faking smiles

So good at faking smiles

#hi  #me  #cute  
2 months ago on March 14, 2013 at 05:02pm with 2 notes
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Every night she wished she were dead, but who cares right? She’ll just get over it.

Every night she wished she were dead, but who cares right? She’ll just get over it.

#suicide  #suicidal thoughts  #depression  #death  #self hatred  #self harm  #kill me  #me  #worthless  #ed  #fat  
2 months ago on March 07, 2013 at 06:29pm with 2 notes
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Oh and my legs have gotten so much fatter. Fuck..

Oh and my legs have gotten so much fatter. Fuck..

#depression  #me  #eating disorder  #fat  #legs  #ed  #self hate  
2 months ago on March 04, 2013 at 10:12pm with 2 notes
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Yup

Yup

#me  #scars  #selfharm  #recovery  
2 months ago on March 01, 2013 at 11:59pm with 12 notes
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My bruise my friend gave me because he was mad at me:/

My bruise my friend gave me because he was mad at me:/

#me  #bruise  
4 months ago on January 13, 2013 at 04:09pm
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Hi… Was trying to take a cute photo but this is how it turned out:/ ugh

Hi… Was trying to take a cute photo but this is how it turned out:/ ugh

#me  
4 months ago on December 26, 2012 at 06:50pm with 1 note
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Hii this is me a month ago, during that week I was happy because I wasn’t alone for once, now I am. Oh well enjoy my ugly face xx

Hii this is me a month ago, during that week I was happy because I wasn’t alone for once, now I am. Oh well enjoy my ugly face xx

#me  
5 months ago on December 11, 2012 at 09:49pm with 1 note
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Searched my grandparents toolbox and found some blades still in the packet. Let the cutting begin…

Searched my grandparents toolbox and found some blades still in the packet. Let the cutting begin…

#bad night  #cutting  #depression  #finally got new blades  #me  #self harm  #self injury  #blades  #cuts  #suicidal  
9 months ago on August 16, 2012 at 12:48am with 11 notes